The Never Ending Nothingness of Something Eventful

2011-02-17T14:28:00.000-08:00

Regret nothing and learn from everything however, I wish in moments of shear confusion of what I’m doing and what I am suppose to do. I am given a card, and on that card I would write down everything I am trying to wrap my head around at that moment; the thought of being known, of being wanted, of wanting the list could go on. If only you were to understand what goes through our heads in moments like that, if only you were to know this, would it change things...the answer is no, for we are told that things happen for a reason. I, myself, say that very thing, that you look at the here and now and only have the ability and the knowledge to affect the present and the future. Their are two sides of this coin, on one side there is the cold shoulder, “I don’t let anything bother me” “furthermore I don’t let anyone even come close to knowing who I am” this bothers me. I have these moments after trust has failed me but if the untrustworthy actions of people form your way of living you are putting too much weight on their opinions. There is wanting to be liked by all and there is not knowing who you are without the people around you. It is this ability that you have gained only by the past and without said past you would not be the person you are in the here and now(the present). Oh, and The other side, well the other side is for you to create.

Throw the baggage to the street, you don’t need it. You can find everything you need around the corner. Just cause you don't know what the streets ahead hold for you doesn't mean they will let you down. No sense in having to carry it all around when it just makes you less likely to jump when you need to. I assure you their is something to jump for, for all of us.

Why is it that when you are around specific people you can’t be the person you are around everyone else. Why is it that it’s seen as you having insecurity when you don’t know how to react in a normal fashion around the one who makes everything slow down around you. Seen as insecure when all you are trying to remember to do is put one fool in front of the other in a semi normal manner.

“I Know how you feel” is a complex statement that only you can fully understand. No matter how well you pre-articulate your thoughts in that head of yours it always comes out as if it was run over by both a wheat combine and an asphalt compactor until the little bits of what you wanted to tell the person blew away with the wind that came from the west.

No matter what after all the hurt, pain, love, and joy the only person at the end of the day that you will be is you.

Things I have been thinking about.

2011-01-21T00:03:00.000-08:00

It has been one year to the day and it feels only the other day you where giving me a kiss on the cheek as I reluctantly stood there and you said you loved me and that God had great things in store for my life. And that you would always be there for me when I needed you. You and my mom didn't always see eye to eye but I know she loved you more then you could ever imagine. So did I Grammie.

I know I will see you again soon. Until then Hope you are enjoying it up there walkin on the streets sipping on a hot tottie.

I love you.

I miss you.

-Daniel

2011-01-13T16:41:00.000-08:00

Live for today yet be prepared for tomorrow.

Live to Bless

2011-01-09T23:51:00.000-08:00

Live to bless.

In church this morning my pastor was teaching us about our mission in life, the one true reason for existing. To have a Missional Life means to be SENT, sent by Him. He said that incarnation and mission go hand in hand in order to have the mission we are sent to do we needed incarnation, which tells us to be mindful of our tone. Just as Jesus called out the men attempting to stone the adulterer, telling “him who is without sin cast the first stone”(John:8) we need to first look at our selves. I catch myself to often saying and not doing.

This is my proclamation to change that in my life.

New!

2011-01-01T23:42:00.001-08:00

"The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude, to me, is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, the education, the money, than circumstances, than failure, than successes, than what other people think or say or do. It is more important than appearance, giftedness or skill. It will make or break a company... a church... a home. The remarkable thing is we have a choice everyday regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day. We cannot change our past... we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude. I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% of how I react to it. And so it is with you... we are in charge of our Attitudes."

-Charles R. Swindoll

Powerful words that I intend to attempt to live up to in the days to follow.

So often do we get overwhelmed with the things we have zero control over. Do only what we can do and give the rest up to Him.

New year, new adventures, new chances to do what we are called to do, new opportunities, new friends, new interests, new decisions, new mistakes, new stumbling blocks, new loves, new hates, new feelings, new heartaches, new memories, new achievements, new beginnings, new ends, new. The future holds all these things and then some, the past is in the past. Sounds like a pretty great moment I will not be planing on missing out on!

So far, I have started this year off with a daring yet exciting beginning... who will know what's next!

2010-08-29T23:53:00.001-07:00

I am back, and better then ever. Version 3.5.9

and I am ready for what God has written for me in the pages of my life.

This is all for now, but be ready for what is to come.

2010-01-21T15:35:00.000-08:00

My heart weeps.

And there are no words phrases verses or otherwise to describe.

Is there a title for this?

2010-01-03T03:12:00.000-08:00

Why can I never sleep!

I have tried what seems like everything to assist me in causing me to fall asleep yet nothing seems to work. I end up sitting here longing for my eye lids to be heavy enough to STAY CLOSED! yet here I am. This writing to you( no one, the void) is a recent development in my time wasted in bed thinking about sleep. we'll see if it works, if so, be ready for many more blog posts. If this does not work I might try more of an alcoholic's approach, I'm sure it will only be a matter of time before studies will show the citrus juice in whiskey sours reduce the risk of cancer in young adult males. I'm just kidding of course, but it feels at times that nothing will help. So I play a fun game I call, "Lay in Bed Waiting to be So Tired I Finally Fall Asleep" met for ages 23 and up gender specific and a single player.

Current mood: surprisingly really happy and eager to see how this year pans out.

Song I'm listening to: Gotta Have You, by The Weepies (judge away) Goodnight world.

2010-01-01T21:27:00.000-08:00

Welcome 2010 year of the tiger!

I have done a lot of things, many things that I am proud of, other things that I am not, no matter. Everything I have done in the past has made me more of the person I am today. This does not define who I am in the future, that is what I work towards for tomorrow.

I have a lot of growing up to do, more then I would like to openly admit, but I eagerly anticipate the challenge!

So I say to 2010, don't give me those mirrors around sharp road corners, I don't want to see what's coming next until I am smack dab in front of it.

2009-11-15T21:59:00.000-08:00

Hear my cry, O God; listen to my prayer. From the ends of the earth I call to you, I call as my heart grows faint; lead me to the rock that is higher than I. For you have been my refuge, a strong tower against the foe. I long to dwell in your tent forever and take refuge in the shelter of your wings. (Psalm 61:1-4)

Such a heart wrenching verse. There doesn't even need to be an explanation.

2009-10-06T16:14:00.000-07:00

I just came across this video and thought it great.

I think we can go through life thinking about what we want in life, what God can offer to us, rather then following what we are asked to do. To acting accordingly to how God, asked us to be toward one another. I'm just saying it's much easier in life to choose to give the money and think someone else will take care of showing God's love another time.

 Then Jesus came to them and said, "All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age."

Matthew 28:18-20

Independence.

2009-08-24T23:05:00.000-07:00

To sing, to laugh, to dream,

To walk in my own way and be alone,

Free, with an eye to see things as they are,

At a word, a Yes, a No,

To fight- or write. To travel any road

Under the sun, under the stars, nor doubt

If fame or fortune lie beyond the bourne-

never to make a line I have not heard

In my own heart; yet, with all modesty

To say: "My soul, be satisfied with flower

- Cyrano de Bergerac

Live Love.

2009-07-23T22:32:00.000-07:00

I set forth on the road ahead not knowing where it may lead.

2009-06-09T22:34:00.000-07:00

Something that sounds so poetic yet unbelievable at the same time, I am told that I am at the point in my life that I have to determine what I am suppose to do with my life? up until now it has been simple, of course I use the word "simple" extremely lightly, but simple in the sense that I go to school to get done with school to become something that the world has considered significant enough to finish and be successful with. why is that? who do we do this? Why is it that we only see fulfillment this way? I have been asking this my hole life (now lets not get over dramatic, my whole life is a bit exaggerated, but for the past 8 years at least !). If you look deeper into what is "success", I would hope you would find something more then what most would think would only be on the surface. that is a nice house a cool car a great "life" I pit quotations around that word because I feel that your life isn't what you have but how you can use what you are given. i am saying this because this is how I want to lead my life, not necessarily how it has gone in the past or is still going. You get cought up in the hype of things, and I hate it. we change the channel whenever we see something that is tough to watch, so that we can sit and wish we were that person on MTV with those sick cars and ginormous house. I am lost, when I think how to change my ways though. How to actually do what I say we all should feel. That little saying that you have heard all your life " actions speak louder then words" is so so hard to actually live life by. And I am the first to admit I haven't, but I am eyes open, heart open, willing and ready to do just that.

The unimaginable to us, is that that God only has to say is to be.